I honestly don't know if I've ever been happier to see a year pass. As I already detailed here, 2017 just wasn't my year. I was stretched, tested, and damn near seriously injured in a major car accident, but some how I made it through with all of my mental faculties relatively intact.
In general, the beginnings of new years always make me (and most of the world I assume) reflective. Despite everything I experienced last year, I did have some wins. I moved to Atlanta for love and have never for a moment regretted that decision and I finally started this blog. I've wanted this blog for years and have dragged my feet because of the paralysis of perfection (more on that later). Wanting something to be perfect can stop you from having something good, and sometimes good really is good enough!
There are a ton of things I want to do with this blog: streamline content, develop a color scheme, and create a font. But with my salary (non-salary) I really can't afford any of these updates right now. I refuse to stop myself from trying because my "brand" isn't perfect.
This brings me to my New Year's resolutions. I know, I know... new year, new me is annoying AF but these are some resolutions I'm planning to stick to!
1. Working Harder for Myself
I want to turn Brown Sugar and Bourbon into something. Since I'm not independently wealthy (yet) I have to earn a paycheck. That means when I come home from work, I've got to give some time to building my dreams. In 2018, I'm letting go of giving 100% at work and then giving myself nada.
2. Giving Up Imposter Syndrome
Working as the Bar Manager at Bread and Butterfly means that I meet so many amazing trailblazers in the food industry in varying capacities. I always have the most incredibly conversations with these people and they often extend opportunities to me that I frankly feel Iike I don't deserve, but I do. I have two degrees, a culinary diploma, and I'm charming (occasionally). There is no damn reason I shouldn't seize these opportunities like the mediocre white male I am not.
3. Saying No
I don't like to disappoint people: my family, my friends, or even strangers in grocery stores. But in 2018, I'm going to have to say no. My number one priority this year is building Brown Sugar and Bourbon. That means being more selfish with not just my time, but with which energies I allow in my space.
4. Giving Up Guilt
I am a good person. I know that through and through. That being said, I'm going to give up guilt about not being a good enough friend, being an underemployed girlfriend, and setting boundaries with family members. Since I am the only person with me 24/7, I will not continue to put the pressure of being what other people want of and from me ahead of my own well-being.
What are some of your resolutions/intentions for 2018? I hope this year brings us all love, safety, and good fortune!